Day 15 – Sun

“And then her heart changed, or at least she understood it; and the winter passed, and the sun shone upon her.”

I promise you that it’s going to happen, and that you’ll know it when it does. You can’t waste your time waiting for it. You just have to keep going until you find it.

One day, I promise you will be somewhere and feel it–a calm, a quiet, even if the world around you isn’t. You’ll be able to feel something welling deep within, something that exists just for you. You might feel guilty for it happening, because it’s not something you can share. But it is something you can keep, and something you can use.

Maybe it’s a sunset after a long day, a gentle breeze that makes you feel good instead of like you have to zip up. Maybe it’s the vibration that lulls you to sleep in the back of a friend’s car, or smiles flashing in time with the music in a club at 2AM. Whatever it is, it’s going to happen. And when it does, hold onto it tight and keep going until you find the next one.

You have to collect as many as you can, and sometimes that requires intention on your part. Search for them, hunt them, tie a rope from your hurt and anger and lasso them down. If you can’t do any of those things, you can put one foot in front of the other. And again. And again. And again. Until it happens.

And I promise you, it is going to happen.